Format: Hardcover, 343 Pages
Published: June 3rd 2014
Genre: Contemporary, Romance
Age Range: 15+
John Green’s The Fault in Our Stars meets Rainbow Rowell’s Eleanor & Park in this beautifully written, incredibly honest, and emotionally poignant novel.Cammie McGovern’s insightful young adultdebut is a heartfelt and heartbreaking story about how we can all feel lost until we find someone who loves us because of our faults, not in spite of them.Born with cerebral palsy, Amy can’t walk without a walker, talk without a voice box, or even fully control her facial expressions. Plagued by obsessive-compulsive disorder, Matthew is consumed with repeated thoughts, neurotic rituals, and crippling fear. Both in desperate need of someone to help them reach out to the world, Amy and Matthew are more alike than either ever realized.
When Amy decides to hire student aides to help her in her senior year at Coral Hills High School, these two teens are thrust into each other’s lives. As they begin to spend time with each other, what started as a blossoming friendship eventually grows into something neither expected.
I loved the idea of this book, and I wanted so desperately to love this book but I just couldn’t. I think you could have cut full chapters out of this novel and still have it make sense. There was too much chatter (by chatter I mean texts and emails back and forth) and not enough real emotion and story happening.
Amy has a tough time making friends, somewhere between her voice box and the never-ending amount of adult aids, other teens her age get intimidated and don’t really speak to her. All Amy wants is real friends, ones her age that she can relate too, so she makes a plan. She is going to pay peers to be her friend, well not actually, but pay them to help her walk to class and carry her books.
What Amy didn’t expect was Matthew, he seems like a normal teen boy on the outside, but inside he is nervous and has these ticks. Together, their disabilities make their friendship seem impossible but they find a way to make it work out to the best for both of them.
Matthew and Amy are portrayed well, and their relationship quirks are perfectly done in this novel but I was just so disappointed in the relationship and character building in this novel. There were more opportunities that weren’t taken advantage of, characters with holes in their personalities and stories and life issues that could have come into play that were skipped over. I think having the story in Amy’s POV could have helped immensely, could have gone a little deeper into what it is like to live with a disability like hers.
Ugh, I’m so mad at myself. Have you ever WANTED to like a story and it just not done it for you? I wanted to like this book, it is different, diverse and not dystopian but it just missed too many pieces so the puzzle (and my satisfaction) is not complete.